D r e a m s t a t e [[Dreams]]

Dream VI: Letting loose

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 20:22:54 GMT

This was an interesting dream so to speak...It took place in various places, with a variety of people I know. There were some parts I still cannot desypher.

The Dream:

It was quite confusing, so bear with me. First I remember I was at the mall with this girl ((unless that was the night before's dream)) we were meeting up with some people...Then I remember...I was in this weird place...Kinda felt like an old scary mansion kinda thing. It was freaky. I remember how dim and hazy everything was. I remember that I was in my mums car, having a real hot and sweaty make out with Steve...yes, I remember. I did. It heh, felt good...Unlike anything..wow...anyways, the weird part was my brother chris was in the car, as Steve and I relised after we were so into each other. Then, the next thing I know, I am at this other place, and I was with my family, and cousins. We had to give them these tickets or something in order to GET OUT. But I got out, and everyone else got out, except they wouldn't let my cousin Brian out because of his bad attitude O_O. And I remember my baby brother stuck up his middle finger, and I started to laugh at him. My mum said "Nicole that's not funny!" Then she said "Nooo" to my brother. Very odd indeed.

But I remember being with Steve the most. It was the most detailed scene of this dream. I remember he was all over me, he had me pinned, aw man it was sweet...Damnn...I'm gonna have an orgasm okay X_X sorry, it was THAT good. Anyways, yeah. I'm sure there was more, however I do not recall.

My Analyzations:

I think I wanted some from Steve. That's all I'm putting lol. I don't know about the other stuff...?

E tu?

~Nicoleetteee

Dream V: TWTD

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 20:09:43 GMT

This dream was a bit odd...Kinda funny odd, I guess you could say.

The Dream:

It was funny because my friend Justin was in it. I remember we were bowling, and Steve was there. After, I remember we were talking online ((like usual)) and Justin tells me that he never ever wants Steve to come again be cause he's distracting. O_o Yeah, that was just weird. But it was short and sweet...Ha, that's all I remember of this dream. I do remember seeing the IM window in my dream.

My Analyzation:

It was just to funny. I think that Steve comes so much to my bowling ((I'm so glad he does that jus tto see me...)). But I don't know. I told Justin about the dream, and he's like "I don't care whether he comes or not! It doesn't bother me." lol. =) Gotta love that kid.

Dream IV: Letting go***

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 19:56:18 GMT

I don't exactly remember where I was the whole time, and this is what I remember...

The Dream:

I remember I must have been in my art class. I was with Steve sitting at one of the tables. I remember I told him, "You have beautiful eyes." And he smiled. Then the bell rang. and we walked outside of the classroom. I wanted to kiss him so bad, but instead, I said "I don't think we should see each other right now..." He was heart broken, I could feel it. I was more hurt than he was, however. As he was walking away, I said to myself, "...I really love him..." But the next thing I relise is that I am going out with some one else! I relised I didn't like this kid when I didn't want to kiss him. It was painful. Then, the next thing I know, I am in my house, it seems...My room. I am on thy computer, and I don't exactly remember whether it was my Gramma or my Aunt there, but however, I do remember what was being said. Who ever it was asked me about Steve. But I wouldn't say anything, and I broke out crying.

I woke up. Now, I am sitting on my bed crying ((in REALITY)). Just a dream about losing him, hurts me. It's way to painful to think about.

My Analyzation:

This one's prett confusing, and tough. I don't know exactly how I could have dreamt this because losing Steve is the last thing I could ever want to happen. Unless it is trying to make me relise that If I lose him it might make me relise I love him and cannot be without him. I don't know...

E tu?

~Nicolee

No dream!

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 20:36:08 GMT

Well...I don't remember what I dreamt last night. Must not have been interesting.

~Nicole

Dream III: Intentions

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 23:50:21 GMT

This dream was by far, one of the creepiest dreams I have had recently. Just creepy.

The Dream:

Now, I am trying to remember most of it. It was clear in my mind a few minutes ago, but when it comes to typing it I have to think back again.
I remember that I was on the line in a store, with my mum and some one else, and we were paying for food. I remember I had a nice ring on...from Steve. And The lady at the cash register was asking me about it, and she said "OMGSH I'm engaged!" I was like "no way! My boyfriend and I are seven months today!" It was an odd moment. And the next thing I know, I turned the corner in the store to throw away a lolipop stick in the garbage ((musta been like Wal*Mart or something)). Then instantly, I'm back in my house. But the scene gets more dramatic. My dad is yelling at me immensley, and I got really angry, so I threatened to stab myself ((okay, it was with a sharp colored pencil--red))...But my dad's said "Don't you dare!!" So take it and shove it in my FOOT! I could actually feel and hear it tear through my bones and skin. Then I had saw what I had done and started screaming out in terror "OH GOD PLEASE HELP ME, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!! I'M SORRY!!" Then I woke up. I woke up with my foot tingling...the same spot where I had stabbed myself in my dreams. Then I got over it and went back to sleep. Then I am in a room that seems like my cousin Dan's room, but my dad is talking to me impatiently. He was talking to me about my cutting. He said he had talked to Justin, and Justin said he knew. I don't really remember anything else that might have occured...but still. I woke up after then.

My analyzation:

I don't have much of one, quite honestly. But the weird part about it was...I ended up stabbing myself with my pencil today! XD IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, DON'T WORRY. It was weird. And it freaked my friend, Chris out.

What do you think about this one?

~Nicole

Dream II: A Choice

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 20:23:04 GMT

This dream was very odd and confusing. It had my ex boyfriend, Kyle in it ((like another previous dream I had before I created this journal)). I'm pretty sure where it took place and such.

The Dream:

I must have been in my house. Like all my dreams, it was hazy. I remember I was talking to my ex boyfriend, Kyle. I don't know why...It was the weirdest feeling. He was talking to me about choosing between him and Steve. I think that in my dream I was thinking about...breaking up...But I could sence the feelings Kyle had for me. I'm sure in reality it's totally wrong, but it was weird. But what he said to me made sence...It really did. I only remember he said ((not in exact quotes)), "When the time comes you will be free to choose him or me." I don't know why. It was all too blurry. But wait. I do remember I was all close and touchy with him. That scared me. I remember after our talk, I woke up. And as I woke, I was thinking exactly what I wanted to name that dream for this journal. But I forgot. Then, I fell back asleep. I had another strange dream, which I could remember. This only was short. I remember my brother's CCD teacher ((my old teacher)) was there. Again, my house. And I was surprised to see her ((because she's a wonderful teacher)). And I gave her a hug. That was about it. Then I woke up. About 9.05 a/m.

My thoughts on this dream:

I'm not so sure exactly what I think...In real life I did talk to kyle about his feelings towards me when he went out with me, and whether he regret it or not. I only asked him that because of a previous dream I had about us saying we miss each other ((as bf-gf)). But I was fine. Until last night's dream!! Ergg. I don't know why I'm being told by my ex boyfriend to choose between him and the boyfriend I already have! It's just crazy. I know that is not what I want. Well, about the part hugging my brother's CCD teacher...I don't know? I think I just miss her. =)

Any thoughts on my dream?

~Nicole

Dream I: Captivation

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 18:04:37 GMT

This is the first of my dreams to be written in this journal. I've been waking up and falling back to sleep constantly last night, and many previous nights. I cannot sleep straight for more than three hours, then I wake up again. I think it has to do with not sleeping as comfortable than I should. But that's besides the point. My dream last night was quite odd...It had Steve.

The dream:

I don't quite remember exactly every part of it, on a count of me waking up every three hours. But Of what I do remember: I must have been in my room. It was fairly crowded and busy, for unknown reasons. I was talking to Steve online. It was really weird, and everything was hazy. I don't know why but this part had to do with Steve's Native American background. But when he was talking to me he was telling me what he was doing this summer, and why he couldn't call me. I remember he called me "love" and "babe." I don't know exactly why he called me the last pet name...he's never called me that, nor do I want him to. But then I suddenly had these short swords, with red feathers on them. From what I remember they looked quite pretty. Well, then all of a sudden my mum and Steve's mum didn't want us to see each other anymore. And Steve and I got sad. I was so mad. I remember the swords had a signifigance in my dream. And they were relevant to Steve's Native American ethinicity. I remember using the phone wanting to call Steve...But the most odd part was that I was talking to my friend Adam on the phone, not Steve. That was weird.

I also remember that in my dream I had hair in my mouth. Long hair. I remember choking on it. I woke up as I dreamt that. I think I was trying to get something out of my mouth, thinking I really was choking on my hair or something.

Well, that is all I can remember for now.

My thoughts on this dream:

I'm thinking that the part about Steve and I talking online has to do with the fact that Steve does not have his computer available in real life. And I want to communicate with him on it as well as the phone. With us talking about where Steve is going in the summer, might bring me back to the fact that Steve told me he was going away in June, in reality. And the part with the swords with the feathers...I don't know how that really came to be, but I know it has to do with Steve's Blackfoot background...And when Steve and mine's mum's were telling us not to see each other, might just deep down mean how when my dad always says he dislikes Steve, and I'm not allowed to see him. Who knows? That's what I think. But I know for sure there was more in my dream. Pieces come back when I think about the dream, but dissolve instantaniously. I cannot retrieve them...

Any thoughts on my dream to you?

~Nicole

Test

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 20:00:28 GMT

This is my dream journal. I record all my interesting dreams here so I will 1: feel better about myself XD, 2: have something to remember them by for future reference, and 3:...I dont know? Well, today I don't really feel like typing my last night's crazy dream @_@' I'm telling yea, it was crazy. Well, Why else did I start this journal you ask? Well, I want to study things about sleep and the subconscience state of mind. I want to study sleeping disorders ((sleep paralysis)) and that sorta stuff. Mostly, I want to desypher dreams, and understand why exactly we dream what we dream...

X.Nicole.X

I love you SR!!!